It’s been about a month since I shared with y’all that I need to lose some weight. Since then I’ve:
- joined a gym and started doing 30-60 minutes of cardio 3-5 times per week
- cut back on soft drinks, alcohol, and second helpings (this is hard because food is delicious)
- weaned off the SSRI antidepressant I was taking (SSRI’s can lead to weight gain in some people, and my doctor and I agreed that I was ready)
And in return I:
- feel tired, irritable, and unhappy
- have gained two pounds
WHAT THE WHAT. That is not how this is supposed to work. You eat better, exercise, and feel better, not worse! What gives? Nick and I had a long talk the other night and both agreed to spend less time on our iPhones, which should help with the irritability (I think part of the reason I’m irritable is that real life is constantly interrupting the important things I’m looking at on the internet). If I’m still feeling this way in a few weeks I may consider another antidepressant. And if I’m still not losing any weight then I guess I’ll start counting calories to see if I’m really cutting my intake as much as I think that I am.
I’ve lost weight before. I know how this works. The only thing I did differently then that I’m not doing now is tracking every bite that I eat–that’s a boatload of work but if that’s what it takes I guess I have no choice. I’m so over feeling uncomfortable in my own body.